Deep Thoughts

As of late I've been longing to look into the future to see what's in store for me. I know you can't predict the future, you just have to live one day at a time, but for someone as impatient as myself, it's sometimes a struggle. It's a fear of the unknown. I won't lie, the thought of the future sometimes consumes me. I just heard a David Cook song on the radio and had to download it because some of the lyrics remind me so much of the emotions I have been feeling (basically just the first few lines. I think we all need to take a step back at some point in our lives and look at it and re-evaluate. Just to see if we're on road we're meant to be on).

You say you gotta go and find yourself

You say that you're becoming someone else

Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you're leaving as you look awayI know there's really nothing left to say

Just know I'm here whenever you need me, I will wait for you

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free

And when you've seen what you need to see

When you find you...come back to me

Take your time, I won't go anywhere

Picture you with the wind in your hair

I'll keep your things right where you left 'em,

I'll be here for you.

Oh, and I'll let you go, I'll set you free

And when you've seen what you need to see

When you find you...come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you needI'll be right here, waiting to see

You find you...come back to me

And I can't get close if you're not thereI can't get inside if there's no soul thereI can't fix you, I can't save you

It's something you'll have to do.

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free

And when you've seen what you need to see

When you find you...come back to me

Come back to me

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free

And when you've seen what you need to see

When you find you...come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need.I'll be right here, waiting to see.

You find you...come back to me

When you find you...come back to meWhen you find you...come back to me

You find you...come back to me

Older and Wiser ;)

Thank you to all of the amazing people who helped me celebrate getting one year older. Between the delicious sushi, the laughter at The Hangover, and the sore ankle...the whole day was a success :-)

24

Today is my 24th birthday. I can honestly say, this is the first birthday where I have really felt like I'm older. It's crazy for me to think that next year will be one of those milestone birthdays...a quarter of a century! Where does the time go? Nonetheless, I have the pleasure of spending this weekend with my amazing family and friends, nothing gets better than that!

Wiiiiiii!

We finally got a Wii. Since both of our birthdays are at the end of this month, and we really don't "need" anything in particular, we figured this would be a fun gift to ourselves. We'd been talking about it on and off but never got one because we're pretty busy people and don't devote much time to the television. However, with the Wisconsin winters we have, we spend an awful lot of time indoors when that time rolls around. I, of course, had to buy Mario Kart. No way I wasn't going to buy that game immediately ;-)

Other than our Wii purchase, life has been busy, actually summer in general has been insanely busy. This week is OJT (on the job training) week for us. It's really nice to actually be at my desk (which I'm slowing decorating) and to feel like we're actually part of the work group. Unfortunately, we go back to class training for 4 hours a day again on Monday until we "graduate" on July 22nd!

Although the days go by super fast it seems, I'm trying to enjoy summer as much as possible. I feel like we've done so much already, and look forward to what is to come! We've got a lot of things on our plate, but this is really the first summer in a few years where we've been able to do things for ourselves!

Attending our first Logger's game of the season with Eddie & Nicole. $25 for the game and all you could eat and drink--amazing!

Just Another Thursday

Me & Miss Ella :-)

You Win Some, You Lose Some

I usually learn something new every day. I think every day there is a life lesson, but it's up to us to uncover it and understand it. Whether or not we agree with what comes of our day, it happened and we must grow from it.

Last week especially, I have been faced with some realities. One being that when it comes to friends, you win some and you lose some. For me I've always been the one who has had an easy time making friends. I am fortunate enough to have many friends from high school that I am very close with. Since high school I have created friendships with many others as well. To me I am puzzled with how people's lives seem to change, so much that they often seem to forget their friendships. I vow never to be like that--that person who pushes away their "old" friends.

Why do our friendships fall apart? What can we do to keep them interesting even as we grow and move in separate directions? Do we blame it on age? Or jobs? Marriage? Who knows I suppose. Everyone chooses their own reasons and rationale for gaining and losing friends. If it were up to me, I'd be in better contact and relationships with those friends who are slowing drifting away.

In addition to friendships falling apart, it's the reality that families have those same breaking points. I have learned that not all families are perfect, and things happen that bring a family together. And things happen that leave you just wondering. But all you can do is be supportive and wait it out, despite how difficult it may be.

So, instead of letting the day slip away from you. Step back and see what you may have learned. It could teach you a lot about yourself as well as others.